🌻 A Personal Journey to Heal the Inner Child🌻
Long Read but defiantly worth it!
I am proud of myself for overcoming a trauma trigger the otherday, and I want to share this experience to help others who may be struggling with their own triggers. As I was writing this so many more memories came to the surface, things I had completely blocked out. Using my gift of remote viewing I went back to that day long ago…….
Growing up, peppermint ice cream was my favorite. However, after a traumatic event, it became a trigger that haunted me for over 50 years. When I was a child, around 5 or 6 years old I had my tonsils removed and couldn't eat much. My mom bought me three gallons ( there is a reason why I remember 3 gallons ) of my favorite peppermint ice cream to help me recover. I remember being excited that I will get to eat just Ice cream, what kid wouldn’t be?. But while she was at work, my stepdad, Dick, got angry because I broke a rule. I laid down on the couch without permission. This was a big no no in the house. You had to have permission for everything. a glass of water, or going to the bathroom. But I was tired from the surgery and being in the hospital for so many days. I got a beating before going in the hospital because I was complaining about my throat hurting. He broke my left arm, I was still in a cast and buries had just healing and just wanted to sleep and forgot to ask. He was very angry! In those days nothing was done about child abuse, people ignored it, and pretended it wasn’t there or that it even happened. He made me stand up and receive licks from the belt on the backside of my body. Where they landed were in different places and hurt so bad, some on top of older bruises, and my arm was hurting but I had to use it. When we received the whippings crying was not allowed or more licks would come. I had to remain standing and could not fall. Falling would get you licks in your face and front side, and that hurt way more than the backside. I remember gagging, with ice cream coming out my nose, and even throwing up. He forced me to eat all three gallons, hitting me whenever I tried to stop. It was an overwhelming experience, and the only way I could cope was by focusing on how the cold ice cream soothed my sore throat, trying to numb the pain of his abuse. Focusing my attention on the pain of my throat and coldness of the ice cream, instead of the pain being inflicted on my body.
As a result, I couldn't bear the sight, smell, or taste of peppermint ice cream for years. I would ask anyone around me to avoid it, as it was a painful reminder of that day.
This past Christmas, my grandchild, JoeJoe, offered me peppermint chocolate and asked, "Nana, you're not going to eat that?" Trembling, I took a bite for his sake, marking a small victory. But it wasn't until the other day that I truly faced my trigger.
When my grandson had to undergo tonsil surgery over a year ago, it unexpectedly sparked a powerful memory from my own childhood. Seeing him with his favorite treats, meant to soothe and comfort him, brought back memories of my own recovery and the trauma I experienced when I was forced to eat peppermint ice cream against my will. This resurfaced memory reminded me of the journey I've taken to heal and overcome my past, emphasizing the importance of finding peace and resilience within oneself. I have been remembering things bringing me to face this trigger, but I just kept avoiding it and disregarding it. I mean who was I going to tell? I am a widow now and my kids don’t wanna hear this stuff. So I just kept it bottled up.
On the way home alone from my event the other day, a voice inside me—my spirit guide—encouraged me to stop and get some peppermint ice cream. It may sound silly, but it took me several attempts to approach the counter. Eventually, I ordered a scoop and drove on the back roads all the way home. It took me a few minutes, but I ate it, and in my mind, I declared, "F@ck you, Dick (that was his real name). I can eat this without you in my head." “I release you from keeping me from enjoying my favorite flavor you piece of Sh@t” I cannot put into words the feeling I had driving down the road eating that scoop of ice cream. It was total bliss!
This experience and many more have taught me that overcoming triggers is a personal journey that requires patience and courage. Every time we face and conquer a trigger, we allow our inner child to heal a little more. That child, burdened by past traumas, feels safer and more understood with each step forward.
### How Overcoming Triggers Heals the Inner Child
1. *Reclaiming Power*: Every trigger we overcome is a step toward reclaiming the power that was taken from us. By facing my fear of peppermint ice cream, I took back control from the traumatic memories.
2. *Building Trust*: Trust between the adult self and the inner child strengthens when we confront and soothe the pain. We show our inner child that we can protect and nurture them now.
3. *Creating New Associations*: Facing triggers allows us to form new, positive associations. By eating the ice cream, I began to create a new memory free of fear and pain.
4. *Embracing Self-Compassion*: Recognizing our progress fosters self-compassion, an essential part of healing. It tells our inner child that they are worthy of kindness and love.
5. *Empowering Growth*: Each victory propels us toward personal growth and healing. It encourages our inner child to believe in a future where they are free to be joyful and safe.
### My Journey and Purpose
Healing is an ongoing journey because it involves continuous growth, self-discovery, and adaptation. Just as life is ever-changing, so too are the challenges and triggers we encounter along the way. Healing is not about reaching a final destination but about learning to navigate life with resilience and grace. Each person's healing journey is unique, shaped by their experiences, emotions, and needs. This individuality makes it essential to know and use the proper tools that resonate with each person’s healing process, whether it’s therapy, meditation, spiritual practices, or creative expression.
Throughout my life, I have faced numerous challenges and traumas so many beatings, death and vulgar things I witnessed as a child, is more than anyone should have seen much less a child. The reality is that have shaped who I am today. Giving me the ability to relate to people from all walks of life, so I am grateful for that ability, not the experience's, but for the knowledge that came from the experience's. And that’s Okay! My inner connections with The Divine, Jesus, Spirit and Angels have been a guiding light in my journey toward healing. They are the reason I am alive today. They have helped me tap into my inner strength, offering support and guidance when I needed it most. This spiritual connection has been instrumental in my own healing and has inspired me to use my experiences to help others.
All of my work is spirit-led and does not follow any program or guideline. I believe that each individual's journey is unique, and I am here to provide personalized guidance tailored to your needs. My purpose is to assist others in their healing journeys by providing the tools and support they need to overcome their own triggers and past traumas. Through my work as a psychic medium, and shadow worker I aim to create a space where people can feel safe, understood, and empowered to heal. My experiences, combined with my spiritual insights, allow me to offer unique guidance and empathy to those who seek healing and transformation.
Overcoming triggers is not easy, but it's possible. Each small victory is a testament to your strength and resilience. Remember, you are not alone, and you have the power to overcome your past and embrace your future. I am available whenever you need support, drawing from my own experiences and the wisdom of spirit and angels to help guide you on your path to healing. There are many great healers in this area if you are not lead to me, that is ok, but please find someone.
If you aren't in need of this type of healing, that is so wonderful! It really is! I do hope the story I shared is somewhat helpful. It took me 50 years to conquer this challenge, but my journey serves as a reminder that healing is always possible. Sharing our stories can inspire hope and resilience in others, and I am grateful for the opportunity to support and guide anyone on their own path to healing.
I encourage you to share this story, as you never know who might need to see it. Our experiences can be a beacon of hope for someone who feels alone in their struggles. By spreading these messages of resilience and healing, we can create a community of support and understanding, helping others find the strength to continue their own journeys. Your act of sharing may provide the encouragement someone needs to take that next step toward healing and discovering the tools that will guide them to a brighter future.
Thank you for taking the time to read and share this story. I am truly grateful for the love and support of those who help spread this message. Your willingness to hit the share button means so much and has the potential to make a real difference in someone’s life. Together, we can help others find hope, healing, and strength.
Sharing this traumatic experience has made me feel scared and vulnerable, but also incredibly free. I hope that by opening up, I can inspire others and create a safe space for healing. If people are interested, I would love to start sharing stories weekly, so please let me know if that's something you would like to see in the comments below.
Be Blessed Beautiful Souls 🌻❤️🪬
The Unique TonyaLe © 2024
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